...too unpatient to write anything lengthy on my own, but more active than ever participating in different methods of collective creation. therefore add me to your messenger if you really care to know how i'm doing these days: akademgorod@hotmail.com
...trying to find a job - but without much success, let alone real motivation.
...happy to have rediscovered that living without any money is not that difficult in finland either. at least not if you happen to know extremely way too kind people - like i do. no, i haven't forgotten the debts i've got, and the payback day will come. just wait, please.
...joining together with other agents of Chaos to threaten the status quo.
...getting my system clean(er) of drugs.
...staying up late, sleeping all days.
...speaking straight, trying to stop lying, telling half-truths or crap. systematically. and possibly hurt some people doing so. i'm sorry?
...slowly realizing an old dream of forming a band, re-evoking the joys of music making.
...better. those who deserve to be thanked for that surely know who you are.
...playing a lot with eliot. it's funny how important friend a dog can become.
...seriously thinking about the positive and negative traits i've got, considering that i'll be a father some day. and trying to learn ways to let my aggressions out without scaring the people around.
...puzzled to have understood that many of my old friends are going to have children. gladly shocked to see the pages of history turn. i hope the next generation won't fuck up as bad as we've done so far.
...wondering how Teemu is doing down there. and feeling guilty for having found what i was looking for before he did?
...becoming able to separate the poems from the prose, the fiction from the applications to get a job and the real friends from the imaginary enemies.
...feeling sorry for not visiting my mother often enough, although she lives in the same city now, and must be terribly lonely at times. after all she's definately the best mom there is!
...drinking too much coffee.
...gaining back the kilos i managed to lose on the voyage.
...genuinely proud of the accomplishments of my friends, and less jealous than i used to be. still haven't learned to show them how much i appreciate their work, though.
...having some pretty damn magnificiently good sex, and falling in love with Suvi again.
...smiling and crying a lot more than before. laughing less.
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